I hope that someday…




I hope that someday you’ll find happiness. The kind of happiness that will make you feel contented. The happiness that won’t make you ask for anything more. Genuine happiness that will make you feel complete.

I hope that someday you’ll feel more optimistic. I hope that you won’t feel negativity. I hope that you will feel more hopeful. I hope that you will feel more faithful. And that you will look forward and never look back. I hope you remember that everything will be better in the end.

I hope that someday you’ll feel more grateful. May you appreciate all the little and grander things in life. That you will never forget to say thank you. That you’ll appreciate the people around you. That you’ll be afraid to lose them. And that you’ll always appreciate them no matter how horrible you think they are.

I hope that someday you’ll appreciate yourself more. That you won’t think negatively of yourself. That you won’t feel insecure. That you won’t envy other people just because they look physically beautiful. That you won’t feel bad for yourself.

I hope that someday you’ll accept your flaws. That you won’t hurt yourself just because you think you’re unappreciated. That you won’t feel punished just because you have flaws. That you won’t think of other people as flawless.

I hope that someday you won’t feel worthless. I hope that you won’t feel like garbage. That you won’t be treated like trash. That you’ll realize your worth as much as I do.

I hope that someday you’ll feel special. That you’ll feel important. That you’ll experience the indescribable feeling of being treated like royalty. I hope that you’ll experience all the luxuries and grandeur of life that you have yet to experience.

I hope that someday you won’t be judged. By society, in general. That no one will misunderstand you just because you did something they didn’t like.

I hope that someday you’ll feel accepted. And not out of place. That you’ll find yourself surrounded by people who you genuinely love and won’t judge you for your mistakes. And that they’ll love you as much as you love them.

I hope that someday you’ll find the one. The one that you’ll love unconditionally. The one that you’ll love for eternity. The one that will kiss you in front of people. The one that will proudly introduce you to his/her friends and family. The one that you will marry.


I hope that this made you feel better in general. I hope that you’ll experience all these things that I haven’t experienced. And that you’ll feel better as much as I do. And that you will never experience the pain I have. 

Metaphors and Reality. (The Amazing Spiderman 2)

Life is perfect.

Happily ever after exists.

Forever is not a lie.

These statements are all big jokes, to tell you honestly. A week ago, I watched the most emotionally-devastating movie to date and only now do I realize and uncover the metaphors found within the movie. It’s a tad bit late for me and I know many of you out there have realized what I’m about to narrate sooner, but hey. Feel free to cry along the way. (Haha lol)


The scene where Gwen hangs on the web for her dear life represents how stubborn and vigilant most of us are. It can also be a vague representation of our faith and hope. How we seem to hold on though it’s frail. How we manage to swing ourselves back to our feet using a thin strip of hope. How we survive every depressing day with the silent promise that everything will be okay in the end.


This part where Gwen Stacy falls to her sad and untimely death, I’ve realized, represents our downfalls that are constantly present throughout our lives. Somehow, we will always fall from the top; no matter how successful we think we are. We all had our own taste of failure. It’s when reality bitch-slaps us or when everything backfires. This is the part where we think suicide is the answer. The part where giving up seems like the only option and nothing else. When all hope seems lost. 



And when everything seems to be falling apart, someone will always be there to catch us. God. He will make everything better again. Though it may seem too late for everything to get better, it still will because of Him. All you need to do is trust him. Let God handle it. He will never make you suffer.


When we finally realize that God will always be there to guide us, We also realize that there are people who are afraid to lose us. People who care about us. People who love us unconditionally no matter how stupid, psychopatic, illogical, absurd and dramatic we are. These people (our family, friends, etc.) will always understand us. That’s their task; to guide us through every downfalls, to be there for us, to cry when we cry. Sometimes, our sadness blinds us from the path to genuine happiness. We tend to stray from the optimism and give in to our pessimism. Negativity is never the key to pulling yourself upright, Optimism is.


I think this movie also showcases the harsh truth of this world. There is no such thing as fairytales, happily-ever-afters and perfect harmonies. In this world, no one is immortal, just like what Gwen said. We may feel that everything lasts forever but in reality, nothing does. Just like in this song I just listened to, Nothing lasts forever. Nothing stays the same. Which is indeed true. Stop thinking that everything will stay the same. Wake up! You’re not in a fairytale. There’s no prince charming, your mom or dad won’t be with you forever, that boyfriend of yours will eventually break all the promises you made. Harsh, I know, but it’s the truth. In life, you learn to accept these things as time flies by. That’s our nature. Acceptance, Truth and Reality. Your life may seem perfect right now, but trust me when I say that it won’t be like that always. Sometimes, it’s hard to see the truth because of what society has fed our imaginations. But trust me when I say that it will get easier in the end.

So that’s my little essay. Hope you guys liked it. xx

Gone, gone, gone. (The Amazing Spiderman 2)

I know that we all think that we are immortal, we are supposed to feel that way, we are graduating, the future is and should be bright, but like our brief 4 years in high school, what makes life valuable is that it doesn’t last forever, what makes it precious is that it ends. Today of all days I am here to remind us that time is love, so don’t waste it living somebody else’s life, make you stand for something. Fight for what matters, no matter what! Because even if we fall short, what’s better way to live?

-Gwendolyn Maxine Stacy



I wasn’t really a huge fanatic of Spiderman even though both of my parents are huge (understatement) fans of Marvel. It all started this year. With this person who liked Emma Stone and I liked Andrew Garfield and we both watched The Amazing Spiderman. Eventually, we started fangirling and doing all possible research as much as we possibly can before the premiere of the sequel comes. We knew it was inevitable. We knew they were going to stick with the comics. But still, I can’t contain my feels, my emotions. What happened was really really sad. So don’t tell me that it was just a movie. for me, it wasn’t. If you’re going to hate me for this, go sit in the corner and screw it. I won’t listen to you even if you tried.

I know that I will sound really overdramatic by doing this but I don’t care because I’m not the only one. So I watched, The Amazing Spiderman 2 last night and may I tell you I’m still crying. Like any other movie, this has really released all the feels I could ever muster. Of course, it’s because of Gwen’s death. I already knew that it was going to happen because this annoying person told me long before it showed in the theaters and I googled it out of curiosity and may I tell you, I sobbed. I cried. I felt it. I felt Peter’s pain. I don’t know. It seems weird but I really felt it. It’s so surreal. It’s amazing how powerful one moment is. How it can affect millions of people. How some scene, no matter how unexpected, can bring even the strongest person to tears. Even for me, who knew Gwen’s death was inevitable, still felt this indescribable sadness. I was moved, really. Moved to the summit of Mt. Everest where I fell and snapped my neck. (See the pun) It was all so sudden. Then again, the movie wouldn’t be as good as it is if it wasn’t for Gwen’s untimely death. I feel Peter’s sadness. He wasn’t able to keep Gwen safe as promised. But nevertheless, Gwen Stacy will remain in us, the fans, forever.