Insights! (UP MunSci Alumni Society Leadership Training)

Today, I attended this seminar that gave me a whole lot of new insights and lessons that I’ll eventually use in the near future.

I love to lead, to tell you honestly. To lead is one of my true passions (considering the fact that I want to do public service in the future). It is stressful, complicated, and mind-wrecking but it’s fun. To have led people into success is such a fulfillment for me. Helping other people to see what I’m seeing, achieve what we all want to achieve, strive for something we all want is an amazing journey.

Luckily, I was one of the few students who were handpicked to attend this seminar. The seminar was hosted by the UP MunSci Alumni Society, “ a socio-civic organization composed of Students and Alumni from University of the Philippines-Los Baños that aims to bring back the Honor and Excellence to their very own Alma Mater, Muntinlupa Science High School.”

The theme which states: MunSci Student Leaders Toward Achieving an Integrated ASEAN Community was the center or the key topic of the program. The seminar was centered towards the proper development of the student leaders and their supposed inclination towards achieving ASEAN integration.

Our first speaker was the board topnotcher of the licensure exams for nutritionists, R-Jay Esposo. He talked about the 10 Qualities of a Good Leader (based from John Maxwell’s 21 Indispensable Qualities of a Good Leader), the reasons why we lead, how we should lead, and who or what a leader is. I learned a lot from his example from Pixar’s Finding Nemo which tells us that in order to be a good leader we must have a sharp mind, commitment, faith, and trust

The second speaker was Ernest Calayag who is the former National Secretary General of the Student Council Alliance of the Philippines. He gave a crash course to Entrepreneurship and the importance of  ASEAN Integration. He basically taught us how entrepreneurship works and its relation to what’s happening between countries.

After that we had a team-building activity in which we are tasked to think of a way to protect the egg in such a way that when it is thrown from the 4th floor, it’s not supposed to break using drinking straws and tape. Unfortunately, our group weren’t successful but some groups were and I think the important lesson was teamwork and of course to use our big brains to its full extent otherwise, what is its use?

The third speaker was Mary Therese Paras who graduated from Ateneo de Manila University (BS Management) and was in an exchange student program and was given the opportunity to study in Macau and is now in law school. Basically, she’s done everything that I want to do in the near future soooo… Anyway she talked about the importance of self-awareness in becoming a leader. She told us to use the SWOT-analysis which stands for Strengths, Weaknesses, Opportunities and Threats and how important it was to ask ourselves questions and how important it was to be self-aware so that we’d be able to carry out our tasks efficiently. It’s about accepting what we can and cannot do and it’s also about our ability to accept that we have weaknesses but with that we have strengths that we can showcase to our advantage.

After that we asked her tips on how to survive law school and she answered that it requires a lot of coffee, little sleep, and of course, studying. Also, she told us that in the entrance test for Ateneo, we could use the essay portion to our advantage especially if we could write and speak english well.

Of course, it was fun. I had fun. Although, I almost dozed off at some parts. But I got the chance to socialize, to gain confidence but mostly, the opportunity that was presented gave me a chance to learn. This will truly help me in the future if I decide to do civil service. It was a nice break from all the academic pressure. It inspired me to be more productive, to do more, to carpe diem in a good way. It’s a learning experience that I’m not going to forget.

Ciao! x


The World is Now Full of Scandal

In less than 48 hours, another child became a victim of the internet’s insensitive scrutiny and judgment.

I told myself not to talk about sensitive matters over the internet but here I am.

First things first, we can’t erase the fact the she did something wrong. Yes she deserves protection, yes she deserves privacy for she is only a minor but let’s face it; we can’t ignore the fact that this is somehow her fault.

Yes, you can argue with me with the fact that she’s only a child but she’s 12! Come on, she has free will, she can think, at that age she should’ve known what’s right and what’s not for crying out loud.

That is of course, if she is indeed the girl on the video.

Second, let me address the people who have watched and shared the video: YOU ARE ALL SICK BASTARDS AND I HOPE YOU BURN IN HELL. My goodness gracious DID YOUR MOTHER RAISE YOU LIKE THAT? DID SHE UNDERGO LABOR JUST TO SEE HER SON OR DAUGHTER TURN INTO A PEDOPHILE? I’d want to personally beat you up and let the dogs feast on your innards but since I can’t because I’m stuck behind my laptop screen, consider yourself lucky.

Third, for all those good for nothing goody-two-shoes out there, can you look straight into my eye and tell me that you did not do anything worse than what that girl did? Oh that’s right, you can’t. BECAUSE YOU ARE ALL PRETENTIOUS GOOD FOR NOTHING BASTARDS, I NEARLY FORGOT. Are you guys that desperate for a good time that you decide to shame a 12-year-old girl because there’s nothing else on the internet that interests you? Let me send you guys a link of cute cat videos then if that will satisfy your insatiable boredom.

Fourth, stop it. Just stop talking about it. I hope this blogpost of mine would be the last thing on the internet that pertains about that matter. It would fade if we don’t talk about it so excuse this blogpost for this would be the last trace of it (And I might delete this soon enough, I just need to blow off some steam. Can’t blame me I might kill somebody if I don’t let the words in my head out. You all know the consequences of trying to shut me up= Death).

Fifth, the reason why I did this is because of the fact that I have a 13-year-old younger sister who could be a potential victim of sick pedophiles out there and I guess this is also a warning for those who might try to do the same thing to my sister or to anyone for that matter. Child abuse/Pornography is against the law and is punishable by death (I sure hope so). So please, if you see it on your timeline, or here on tumblr, report it, block the person who shared it, close your browser, and go to sleep. Help the girl by being a responsible netizen. Just imagine if the same thing happened to your little sister. Please please let this be the last trace of it on the internet.

With love,

the girl who’s trying to save the world. x

I hope that someday…




I hope that someday you’ll find happiness. The kind of happiness that will make you feel contented. The happiness that won’t make you ask for anything more. Genuine happiness that will make you feel complete.

I hope that someday you’ll feel more optimistic. I hope that you won’t feel negativity. I hope that you will feel more hopeful. I hope that you will feel more faithful. And that you will look forward and never look back. I hope you remember that everything will be better in the end.

I hope that someday you’ll feel more grateful. May you appreciate all the little and grander things in life. That you will never forget to say thank you. That you’ll appreciate the people around you. That you’ll be afraid to lose them. And that you’ll always appreciate them no matter how horrible you think they are.

I hope that someday you’ll appreciate yourself more. That you won’t think negatively of yourself. That you won’t feel insecure. That you won’t envy other people just because they look physically beautiful. That you won’t feel bad for yourself.

I hope that someday you’ll accept your flaws. That you won’t hurt yourself just because you think you’re unappreciated. That you won’t feel punished just because you have flaws. That you won’t think of other people as flawless.

I hope that someday you won’t feel worthless. I hope that you won’t feel like garbage. That you won’t be treated like trash. That you’ll realize your worth as much as I do.

I hope that someday you’ll feel special. That you’ll feel important. That you’ll experience the indescribable feeling of being treated like royalty. I hope that you’ll experience all the luxuries and grandeur of life that you have yet to experience.

I hope that someday you won’t be judged. By society, in general. That no one will misunderstand you just because you did something they didn’t like.

I hope that someday you’ll feel accepted. And not out of place. That you’ll find yourself surrounded by people who you genuinely love and won’t judge you for your mistakes. And that they’ll love you as much as you love them.

I hope that someday you’ll find the one. The one that you’ll love unconditionally. The one that you’ll love for eternity. The one that will kiss you in front of people. The one that will proudly introduce you to his/her friends and family. The one that you will marry.


I hope that this made you feel better in general. I hope that you’ll experience all these things that I haven’t experienced. And that you’ll feel better as much as I do. And that you will never experience the pain I have. 

Metaphors and Reality. (The Amazing Spiderman 2)

Life is perfect.

Happily ever after exists.

Forever is not a lie.

These statements are all big jokes, to tell you honestly. A week ago, I watched the most emotionally-devastating movie to date and only now do I realize and uncover the metaphors found within the movie. It’s a tad bit late for me and I know many of you out there have realized what I’m about to narrate sooner, but hey. Feel free to cry along the way. (Haha lol)


The scene where Gwen hangs on the web for her dear life represents how stubborn and vigilant most of us are. It can also be a vague representation of our faith and hope. How we seem to hold on though it’s frail. How we manage to swing ourselves back to our feet using a thin strip of hope. How we survive every depressing day with the silent promise that everything will be okay in the end.


This part where Gwen Stacy falls to her sad and untimely death, I’ve realized, represents our downfalls that are constantly present throughout our lives. Somehow, we will always fall from the top; no matter how successful we think we are. We all had our own taste of failure. It’s when reality bitch-slaps us or when everything backfires. This is the part where we think suicide is the answer. The part where giving up seems like the only option and nothing else. When all hope seems lost. 



And when everything seems to be falling apart, someone will always be there to catch us. God. He will make everything better again. Though it may seem too late for everything to get better, it still will because of Him. All you need to do is trust him. Let God handle it. He will never make you suffer.


When we finally realize that God will always be there to guide us, We also realize that there are people who are afraid to lose us. People who care about us. People who love us unconditionally no matter how stupid, psychopatic, illogical, absurd and dramatic we are. These people (our family, friends, etc.) will always understand us. That’s their task; to guide us through every downfalls, to be there for us, to cry when we cry. Sometimes, our sadness blinds us from the path to genuine happiness. We tend to stray from the optimism and give in to our pessimism. Negativity is never the key to pulling yourself upright, Optimism is.


I think this movie also showcases the harsh truth of this world. There is no such thing as fairytales, happily-ever-afters and perfect harmonies. In this world, no one is immortal, just like what Gwen said. We may feel that everything lasts forever but in reality, nothing does. Just like in this song I just listened to, Nothing lasts forever. Nothing stays the same. Which is indeed true. Stop thinking that everything will stay the same. Wake up! You’re not in a fairytale. There’s no prince charming, your mom or dad won’t be with you forever, that boyfriend of yours will eventually break all the promises you made. Harsh, I know, but it’s the truth. In life, you learn to accept these things as time flies by. That’s our nature. Acceptance, Truth and Reality. Your life may seem perfect right now, but trust me when I say that it won’t be like that always. Sometimes, it’s hard to see the truth because of what society has fed our imaginations. But trust me when I say that it will get easier in the end.

So that’s my little essay. Hope you guys liked it. xx




It’s amazing how easily change comes and goes. It is baffling how  the outside world influences us inevitably. It’s amazing how a book can make us think more rationally; how a movie manages to make us realize our shortcomings and make us do something about it; and how a person, if it’s the right person, comes and drastically change our perspective in life.


It is the one thing that is permanent in this cycle we call life. It is the only thing that is certain. Everything else is subjective to change. Even the future. It is there. It happens anywhere you look. It may happen quickly. It may take an indefinite amount of time but one thing is for sure, you will CHANGE. 


It’s funny how people sometimes get the wrong idea and expect things to not change. For example, some people wish that they’re friends would never change or they wish their relationships would always be as perfect as they think it is forever. They’re wrong. It’s wrong to expect things to not change. Like they say, expectations often lead to disappointment. It is far better to not expect than to do so. Sure you hope that things would always be as good as it already is but honestly it won’t be. It will eventually change. 


Change is technically a good thing. Change can reform you to a better version of you. It can either be physical change, psychological change, spiritual change, etc. It can be a simple switch with your bestie or a life-changing experience such as finally meeting ‘The one’ or a sudden car accident. Change usually happens in order to make you a far more better person than you were in the past. It makes you more conscious of your previous actions and makes you correct your mistakes so you never have to do it again in the near future. It may take place anytime, anyplace, at any circumstances; whether you’re ready or not. But then again, you cannot prepare for change; rather you anticipate it. It is a very overwhelming experience one should always cherish and look forward to. It is not something you should be terrified of rather it should be something you are ecstatic of. It is exciting, trust me. The exhilarating feeling you get when riding a roller coaster is nothing compared to the feeling of change. It’s funny how people take change negatively. Sure, some people change for the worse but that doesn’t mean you should stereotype and classify any form of change as a negative impulse. Change is very beneficial for you. You will surely derive positive things from change.


See, Change corrects us, defines us and most definitely refines our individuality. It is one of the key fundamentals of our whole-being. Change is also about making the right choices. Be mindful of your decisions because every single one you make triggers change. Again, Change is constant. It happens. It comes. It goes. But one thing you should know: You shouldn’t be afraid of it.

Paper Girl

10 hours after reading the book with the most unsurprising yet unpredictable ending ever do I realize how similar Margo Roth Spiegelman and Carmela Ann Javier is.

See, Margo is Quentin’s childhood sweetheart turned ninja-with-a-revenge paper girl in the book obviously called Paper Towns. The title “Paper Towns” is a metaphor for fake cities (or town). Later in the book, Quentin realizes that the Margo he knew wasn’t really the Margo that she really was (Ps: this sentence does not make any sense) therefore making her a Paper Girl. (which btw means fake girl)


Well let me tell you a little bit about Margo.

Margo is a timid, taciturn and over-the-top nice to almost everyone around her (except to her parents though) She is the queen bee. She has a jock for a boyfriend, a really nice circle of friends. But she isn’t who you think she is. Every now and then, Margo runs away from Orlando and embarks in an adrenaline-filled adventure to different places in America. She leaves clues to her parents to add more drama to her exciting adventures. After an amazing adventure with Quentin, she suddenly disappears without actually leaving clues for Quentin. Quentin assumes hat Margo wants him to find her. In the end, they did find Margo somewhere in Agloe, New York (a fictional town invented by cartographers in the early centuries) but sadly, they learned that Margo didn’t want Quentin to find her. She left. She never wanted to be found. She won’t come back.


At first, I didn’t understand why Margo left but eventually I did. 


She was, as I mentioned beforehand, a paper girl. The place where she lived is a paper town. The place where she lived, the people she was with, the environment she grew up were all sullen reminders of how little the people knew of the true Margo and how fake she was. Basically, this girl has two faces. One for the audience and her true self. She left because she felt out of place; like she didn’t belong to her family, her friends and Orlando.


That’s why I understand Margo. I AM SO MUCH LIKE HER. I’m a fourteen-year-old adrenaline-junkie who is most of the time mercurial and is dangerously volatile. I usually feel out of place and isolated but I keep going since I’m used to it and I imagine that I’m strong enough to endure it even though most of the time I can’t. Trust me when I tell you that I am the most complicated and most misunderstood person you’ll ever meet. I have a lot of issues, dramas, insecurities and stuff. I may seem super happy and you may see me with a huge circle of friends and yes I do have a seriously awesome boyfriend but you’ll be surprised to know that none of those people know everything about me.


Do they know that I hate cheese? That I don’t eat crabs? That I hate being judged, marginalized, underestimated, insulted, isolated and bullied? NO. Some of them may seem like they do but they don’t. That’s the part where My and Margo’s path cross. The part where we have different sides. The part where we both feel out of place and stuff. 


While writing this blogpost, I kept of thinking how to escape like Margo. But I can’t. This is where we’re so different. She’s willing to leave everything behind and live alone. On the other hand, I am not daunt enough to leave everyone and everything I love for a different adventure. I love my life though I may seem like I hate it. I love my friends, my family, him though it may seem like I don’t. I’m up for crazy ideas. I may agree to leaving but someday and somehow, I’ll find my way back to this life that I hated and loved. 


Therefore, I am a paper girl myself. Just like her, I’m a girl with different sides, with many faces and with many crazy ideas. But I will never be Margo Roth Spiegelman. I will always be me.

Freeze the moment.



I wish I could freeze this moment right here, right now and live in it forever. – Peeta Mellark, Catching Fire

There are moments in life where we wish to press the pause button and live that memory forever and ever. But sadly, you can’t. 


There are moments when we freeze because of happiness. That happiness can radiate from anyone. Most likely, from the ones we love. The world stops when this happens. Sometimes we’ll even say: Where have you been all my life? Times where our eyes light up, our mouth quirks at the corners. Special moments when we lie on our backs and appreciate how beautiful life is. Times where we acknowledge all the blessings we have received in our short time on Earth. It is when we realize how lucky we really are. Moments where our eyes focus to that special someone. Moments where we smile as if we’re the most ecstatic person in this planet. Happy isn’t it? These are the moments that we hold on to. Things that keeps us motivated and inspired. 


These are the things that kills us once the person we shared it with have walked out from our lives.


Yet again, we are frozen.


Our world turns dark as the light agonizingly disappears from our eyes. You try to catch it. But it moves too fast. You try to communicate with it but it won’t listen. Then, the empty feeling comes. The hollow hole, empty chest and wet eyes. We are sent into an abyss where life and our return is uncertain. We don’t know when or if we’ll be stable again. If we’re going to have one of those happy moments again. We start to think that the world is unfair. We start to feel unwanted and isolated. Times when you just sit and stare at the wall and then cry because we are all alone. We start to forget the meaning of the word happiness. We cry all day and all night just to forget that nagging voice in your head that says: He/ She never loved you. It was just an act. The desperate feeling returns from its vacation. Greeting you with a big evil smile before finally taking over your mind, body and soul. Another moment where everything stops. This is the part when you’ll wish your heart stopped beating.


This phase is called: Letting go. It may take days, weeks, months or years but eventually, after all the pain and agony, we’ll stand and be happy again. We’ll find that someone we’ve been waiting for and we’ll wish to freeze the moment all over again. 


We’ll never know when that moment comes but we are sure that we would want to freeze it when it does.